
Full disclosure here: I bought the debut HOLE album "Pretty On The Inside" back when it was first released. Being a fan and very early supporter of the Seattle scene, I was anxious to hear what Bay Area ex-patriot Courtney Love and her half LA-based half Seattle-based band sounded like. Truthfully, I came away far less than impressed. I was also a professional recording/gigging musician at the time, with very close ties to bands like THE MELVINS (who my then band SACRILEGE BC played with when we would tour in the Northwest area), CLOWN ALLEY, whose two core members Mark Duetrom and Lori Black would both eventually take their respective turns at holding down bass duties for Buzz and Co. (Mark also produced the SACRILEGE BC album "Party WIth God" when we were all on Alchemy Records, musical incest was rife in our scene), after THE MELVINS' original bassist Matt Lukin stayed home to form MUDHONEY while THE MELVINS moved to San Francisco. Buuuut that's a whole other life and another story completely. Let's just say I already had a love and an insiders knowledge of what was going on during that time in "the scene", even from my vantage point in the suburban refinery town of Martinez, CA, which was a few miles from the East Bay area of Oakland/Berkeley.
That said, I always welcome a chance to go back and flesh out the history I was lucky enough to share with many who are considered "legends" now. Comparing the romanticized history to the actual truth can be a tricky and subjective thing as well, with many not-so-talented artists reaping a status they don't necessarily deserve in a creative sense, while many other more deserving individuals and bands go by the wayside (see: VICTIMS FAMILY, a proto prog-punk act also from the Bay Area...oh, never heard of them? Check them out
HERE). This semi-embittered diatribe brings me to HIT SO HARD, the documentary supposedly about Patty Schemel, the original drummer for HOLE.
First off, the first half of this film should be called KURT COBAIN'S FRIEND PATTY, since a huge part of the film is home video footage of the NIRVANA frontman hanging out with his family and small group of friends. It comes off like everything and everyone in the initial wave of grunge (ugh, that media term still makes me shiver with disgust...it was always plain old hard rock to me, no matter how it was dressed up) defers to Mr. Cobain. Sure, the dude wrote pointed, scathing, and admittedly clever lyrics, and he was incredibly deft at marrying those to hook laden riffs and melodies...but so were American hard rock pioneers CHEAP TRICK, who had been subverting their hesher audiences for years with well concealed irony, and arrows of clever sarcasm aimed directly at a large number of their listeners.
When it finally gets around to Patty and her drumming, I had trouble not rolling my eyes. Her peers (most of them hackneyed pseudo musicians themselves, commercial success not withstanding) and Patty herself fawn over her skills. Sorry folks, but as Billy Corgan so brilliantly said "Shitty is not an aesthetic", and when these statements and outbursts of humble-shrouded ego are coupled with footage of Patty's playing, which is hamfisted and grooveless, it kind of makes my blood boil.
The other female drummers they have on camera, like Gina Shock from the GO-GO's who tout Patty, only add to my argument. Shitty musicians complimenting and stroking other shitty musicians...it makes me want to barf. You want good female drummers? Check out Sheila E. doing a drum solo that would shame most male drum gods
HERE, and leave the Mo Tuckers and others of her ilk to the sexist apologists. I'm sorry, but we had a saying in the rehearsal room, "Shit in equals shit out" meaning, well simply put, shit is shit no matter what it's wearing, what it smells like, or what's between it's legs.
When it seems like the heights of delusional, self-congratulatory dialog can get no higher here comes Courtney Love. Do I even have to go there with quotes? No. The footage of her lackluster and forced knocking over of mic stands onstage and posturing in her baby doll dresses, while giggling, is insulting to anyone who has really taken it there as far as getting their anger out in an artistic sense. This is not cathartic release, it's self-serving and self impressed posing. Again, sorry, but "shit in equals shit out". So when she starts running her mouth it's hard not to embrace a
MENTORS like attitude. She of course keeps making it about herself, and at one point in not-so-passive-aggresive fashion claims that the only people who "get her" are women, gay men, and "evolved males, the few there are". Uh, no. Keep telling yourself that, I personally believe it's the fact that many male rock fans, with pent up angst, tend to see through the bullshit, and would rather engage with an act that doesn't attack them simply for being men. It's the flip-side of the sexist coin. Don't assume you are being maligned, especially in a musical sense, because you are female. In the case of Miss Love, it's merely because her music sucks. Thank you very much. Her grab at street cred, and bragging about having "a lesbian drummer" is the piss flavored icing on her nasty ass cake too. Really? Wow, ok. SO we're going to be that much of a hypocrite, and believe that someones gender preference makes them a better musician and more desirable as a band member? Give me a fucking break!
Now, see? HIT SO HARD spends so much of it's time meandering between bragging and shit talking, that it's a little difficult really getting to know Patty (who despite her lack of talent and over-abundance of musical confidence, does actually seem like a nice enough person, and is undeniably a survivor, even though the "Live Through This" chapters in her life were all self-imposed), which is an issue I lay at the feet of director P. David Ebersole.
There, however, were a couple of true voices of reason in the picture. Patty's mother, who comes off incredibly loving, and admirable, especially when recounting her daughters coming out as a teenager. A feat in itself, because of the area and community she comes from in the more rural and back-asswards area of Washington state, Marysville. For me, this is where the heart of the film lays. The other, to my surprise, is Mellisa Auf De Mer, the well bred replacement for HOLE's original bassist, Kristan Pfaff, another OD casualty of the heroin infested Seattle scene of that time. The fact that Pfaff died the month after Cobain isn't only sad, it's disgustingly telling of the self-centerdness of these people, who believed they were above it all in some way, and bought into the notion of being romantically wasted. In contrast, De Mer, who was very young when she joined the tumultuous band, exudes honesty, and a modicum of class missing from the rest of HIT SO HARD.
To be fair, when the film gets into Patty's descent into crack cocaine, and recounts her time living homeless in Seattle, the films tone shifts to something more real, and as a retired musician myself who has many aged out peers still trying to grab the brass ring (which honestly told, is a myth anyway) when they should be living their lives, my disgust ironically receded. Her survival of that situation, and the fact she got her shit together brought me the respect the film asks the viewer to have for her. Not her friendship with Cobain, not her drumming, not the fact she went through hell being gay in a town full of asshole hicks. Also, watching her teach drums to other young girls (though I shiver at what they AREN'T learning) is a constructive and kind of wonderful thing.
Is HIT SO HARD a good documentary? Hmmm. Well, putting my personal misgivings about the level of talent, and its lack thereof, being heralded here, and the whining of First World Problems from privileged white people, female or not, I am guilty of being entertained by the train wreck. But, also, in the end it was indeed nice to see the Phoenix-esque resurrection of Patty The Human Being, and her ability to stay sober and put her life back together, which now seems much more normal and sane sans the drugs and rock music. It ends with her and her doggie day care business, which is now her life. Some of the more talented musicians I know (many of whom you've heard of if you listen to metal/punk/or alternative music) could take a clue from their less gifted counterpart.
As a documentary, HIT SO HARD was a mixed bag for me. Three parts annoying, two parts, aggravating, one part inspiring, but all things said, I watched the entire thing, and was entertained in a tawdry reality tv kind of way.
Serve with -
Spaghetti-O cheeseburgers
Lukewarm and flat Pabst Blue Ribbon
Bong resin
If you like HIT SO HARD, check out these other entertainments -
Another State Of Mind (classic old school punk documentary)
This Is Spinal Tap
Some Kind Of Monster (the sad Metallica doc that's actually funnier than Spinal Tap)
You're Gonna Miss Me (about Roky Erickson)
TAD: Busted Circuits, Ringing Ears